Ok, this is a breaking point. I mean it. I've got to do something about this. I mean, when you hurt your leg trying to get to your bed AND your favorite jeans are unzipping when you sit down, you have to know that something is wrong. LOL.

I actually weighed myself today. I've been noticing that I've gained a little weight since Thanksgiving or whenever I last weighed myself, and I was right. About ten pounds. I also have, like, NO energy. Which is really sad. My mom said that it's because I eat all carbs. Ok, ok, so that was God talking through her and not my mom, but I got the picture. I just hate how I feel when I am a little overweight. It's nothing major, only about fifteen pounds, but I am determined to lose that before swimsuit season. Starting this weekend, my mom and I are going to start eating better(she hates how she looks too) and exercising more. She won't let me go on a diet, but she did agree that I need to learn how to eat right. I'm aiming for 125 pounds. Ok, ok, so I'm actually aiming for 115 to 120, but my mom won't let me go that far so fast. It was actually kind of funny. I told my mom I wanted to get down to 110, and she said that that would be a really dangerous weight for me. So I kept going up by fives until we settled on a weight that I would feel good as but that wouldn't be dangerous for my body type. Supposedly 125 is even lower than I need to go to be at the normal weight for my age and body type. It's supposed to be around 135, but I could not stand being 135 pounds. Not when I'm surrounded by people who are 100-110. Wow, this is a really stupid entry. I mean, I have more important things to do than ramble about how I want to lose weight! LOL. Although I think that half the reason I didn't care about what I weighed is because I knew that the Lord didn't judge me by that. Well, not really. Maybe because I just didn't want guys to like me and ask me out so I would have to say no. LOL. How wierd is that? I mean, I can say no(should a guy ever ask me out....) without hurting my self esteem and self image! LOL. I gots to go. Until!

Love in Christ,
All His own,
(:Emily:)